Fun-Filled July...

in the blink of eyes, it's finally july.. yet another turning point for me..

i love july especially this one.. jam packed with lots of fun - grad day, bdae, chalet, resort, genting.. how can i not love it you tell me.. i'm happy currently.. forget about the previous post.. i wanna meet the girls...

=)

nitez fall as @11:24 AM

okay i'm back..

to vent anger right here..

since the last post, there has been to many changes in my life.. i got a new job after my contract ended with wing tai.. now in this new fucked up MA, yes crap! i get haunted but endless smses in early morning and weekends.. with my phone no longer private.. with strange msges haunting me.. shit, with no increment whatsoever..

i'm here to clear shit and get scolded for fuck.. joanne will know how shitty it is.. to be asked to clear the budget by today by hook or by crook.. to stay overnight i dun care.. so fucked up.. knn.. i don't like it this way..

more worries to come in time.. i'm afraid.. alright.. i'll be strong and freaking fine..

that's just so me.. bless me!

will you be there when i needed you the most?

nitez fall as @9:49 AM

uncertain

i'm still uncertain about some stuff in life..
amazing, i need a laughing pill again..

*jia you*

nitez fall as @7:19 PM

frustrated

i'm feeling so pisssed off..

nitez fall as @12:01 PM

May 2009..

this is yet another turning point of my life.. i still cant comprehend if it's a good one a not, but definately assured that it wasn't 1 of the worst ever.. in this short span of april, i had many of these "very first" pass my BTT, touch the car, end my uni life, my first concert, handled the job alone and many many others..

it's how amazing that the not very smooth april ended within a wink of eye with his pair of helping hand that i could never forget.. thinking i could have leave the whole mindset of status and power behind with just happiness.. but still someone have yet to prove me wrong again.. for the many many drops of tear near to a litre.. it was yet another lesson but not so obvious.. yet another promises are are meant to be broken.. however upset i maybe still the strong front like everyone else think.. so tiring.. i'm so amazed by the disappointment felt one after another..

birthday celebration for him but not too much of an appreciation, not a thank, no nothing.. just another puppet? i plan to end the road with pavement much laid.. but none laid for myself.. fallen 1 again? of the quiet twenty, the tears dropped for the forgotten..

of the girls that had their commitment, bliss & bless.. appreciate the company thou not for too long.. i have so little left for LOVE.. all i wish is this upcoming job and my commencement..

yucky thoughts so much to be penned down.. i guess it will be well kept in my heart..

** i want nobody nobody but you**

nitez fall as @5:05 PM

these few days..

no where & nothing is a bed of roses definately..

learnt sth from my tution kid.. fei.. cute la.. still enjoying it..

turkish coffee..

& i forget the name liao.. sth v v special.. dessert..

boon's bdae..
my gift to her..
cutie doreamon
another one

gift from sis.. from us..
maple syrup my fav..

my first farmart exp..

the only 3 types of beer there.. with ck, di & wc..

granny b'dae at jurong hill teppanyaki..
grandma & i
gradma & bro
yummilious food

cong's b'dae
green monster
red dot


my love love


level gate crossing..
so heng got train wor..

tt's abt it.. bad worst worsen..

nitez fall as @11:37 AM

the song that linger in my head...



我可以忍受 你不夠愛我
我可以忍受 你有別的夢
就算是偏謊話哄我 至少
你還在乎我的感受

我可以忍受 眼神的空洞
我可以忍受 你時間不夠用
卻不能忍受 做了那麼多
是他擁有 我該得到的溫柔

愛著你 是我改不了 也不願改的習慣
要放開 哪有那麼簡單
了解你 是我說不出 也不承認的悲哀
包容你 是我體諒的愛 別當作應該

我可以忍受 你不夠愛我
我可以忍受 你有別的夢
就算是偏謊話哄我 至少
你還在乎我的感受

我可以忍受 眼神的空洞
我可以忍受 你時間不夠用
卻不能忍受 做了那麼多
是他擁有 我該得到的溫柔

愛著你 是我改不了 也不願改的習慣
要放開 哪有那麼簡單
了解你 是我說不出 也不承認的悲哀
包容你 是我體諒的愛 別當作應該

我可以忍受 你不夠愛我
我可以忍受 你有別的夢
就算是偏謊話哄我
至少你還在乎我的感受

我可以忍受 眼神的空洞
我可以忍受 你時間不夠用
卻不能忍受 做了那麼多
是他擁有 我該得到的溫柔

Oh no no no
不要說 對不起
原來你要的不是我 (你要的是什麼)
不要說 謝謝你
什麼你永遠在我心中 (你說的我都不懂)
Can you tell me why? (tell me why)
這樣的我 你也曾愛過

我可以忍受 你不夠愛我
我可以忍受 你有別的夢
就算是偏謊話哄我
至少你還在乎我的感受

我可以忍受 眼神的空洞
我可以忍受 你時間不夠用
卻不能忍受 做了那麼多
是他擁有 我該得到的溫柔

不是嗎 (不是嗎)
是他擁有 我沒看過的笑容

nitez fall as @10:08 AM

the overdue cake




nitez fall as @9:51 AM

男人女人

男人男人 多希望你是好人多

希望用你的真 让我不必再心疼

女人女人 我答应做个好人

我答应用我一生 来换你的快乐一生

男人男人 多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真 让我不必再心疼

女人女人 我答应做个好人不会再让我(你)心疼　

一等再等你就是我等的那个人

男人男人女人女人多么希望你是对的人

nitez fall as @1:59 PM

losing faith..

i'm starting to lose faith in the things i'm facing, it might not be a great deal to some but for me personally i thot it was like the sky falling onto me at the wrong time.. how horrible can it be? very very i would say..

BOO...

things aint gg well..

nitez fall as @5:57 PM

nerds..

wohuh.. fav stingray for dinner and i ate 1 medium stingray by myself at abc market.. then to anchorpoint, so mountain tortise lah.. i didn't know there are so many factory outlets there.. kind of suprise and then the guys bought like 3 pairs of glasses.. then off to ah chew dessert, the standard dropped in my opinion.. its uber sweet for my liking.. surprisingly didnt finish my yang zhi gan lu..

Tada..
spastic..
lovingly sweet..
waiting for more picts.. lol.. yck..

nitez fall as @2:52 PM

fun-filled sunday

yeah i did it after so so many practise.. 100%..

then to elijah full month..
so sweet eh..

met shan for dindin at queen & mangosteen..



enjoy-ed! bleah

nitez fall as @11:09 AM

coping with it

it's all good after all those shit..

*smile*

and i realise age is catching up and i can really feel the difference.. aching all over after three hours of partying.. it was great i should say.. thanks for the company!

nitez fall as @9:26 PM

long long long day ytd

the office was quiet, only sounds of the water following thru the huge rainwater downpipe.. was totally sleepy.. i knocked off like almost immediate when the clock strikes 6.. reached home and await da jie back but she didn't.. she only came back after i decided to go out.. the hangout was like a observation study instead.. there are things that are compatible, there are things that don't.. had a chat a little too late.. dodododo..

why not have an emo tea.. haha..

tada.. gel nails, not..

nitez fall as @10:32 AM

to me, it wasn't a joke..

what a comment made, you just constantly demoralise me that all..
if i cant perform, blame yourself not me.. i wouldn't care anymore..

nitez fall as @11:38 AM

march much better..

kickstart for what is needed, gave up what that is redundant..

short trip soon! yeah!

nitez fall as @10:30 AM

proper should be it.. entire fab feb..

food is such a sin..
unique dolphin lamp
something i didn't touch for v long..
tcc-ed alone after a long tiring morning alone at work..
railway mall..
as seen..
tourist for the day..



had great fun after the mind-killing work..

nitez fall as @9:44 AM

life is weird

i seriously need a good laugh.. there are things i thought i had long forgotten but someone told me something, she wishes to return to the past.. it kind of refreshes my mind on my past too.. a scar too deep, never was it recovered but became part of me..

as for now, i wouldn't wan to think far in that certain aspect.. i need a break..

& somehow the same feeling is back.. it wasn't the initial but the latter that made me awkward.. but still i hope to see u pen some gd news there..

nitez fall as @8:25 PM

alright..

great, 2 in a row (could considered 3 in a row.. depends hw u see tings)
how lucky can that be.. ya once again, my life is full repetitive events.. i guess it isn't a 'sorry & thank you' affair.. but well all were said and done by you.. so it doesn't really matters what's the truth..

SIMPLE can't be the solution.. perhaps you & you made me dumb or dumb-er? i should just stick to my initial stand.. anw best wishes to you sincerely coz u ever made my day brighter..

*period*

enough said!

nitez fall as @8:11 PM

at least a decent post..

MY FOREVER LOVE LOVE


so of the new year, i started to work on the third day coz didnt want to take the force leave.. waste money waste time.. but the actual was on fri & is half day coz they got kai gong ceremony on 2 feb..


winebar on 11 feb.. more like a heart to heart talk.. i heart her..


of the valentines'


nitez fall as @9:22 AM

闷

笨蛋，你叫我blog的。。。

好久没有blog了。。。
不知道为什么没当自己的路好像平坦一点后，
又变得很零乱。。。
有时候感觉非常累，
不知道是自己的问题还是经济真的垮了！

多三个月就快要失去工作的我，该什么办呢？

好想放个长假。。。

不过有害怕没有收入。。。

天啊！我该什么办呢？

nitez fall as @10:45 PM

Festive season..

xmas celebrated at my hse.. bbq, wii, drink & gift exchange..

the entire gang

and on this particular date, there was a reunion for my teddy & his sis.. lol..
cny eve

haha.. anw cny is always something i dont look forward to.. and this yr i only got a dress and 3/4 pants only.. how not anticipating..
on the way out
at grandma's hse
after visiting

nitez fall as @5:07 PM

another fulfilling weekend

after so long.. i went there again on a lonely friday night..



floating bar..

thanks rus-o-shit.. lol..

sat was bro b'dae 13th celebration.. alright gotta admit i'm damn old le..
carousel..

as usual.. my sweet tooth..

nitez fall as @11:30 AM

of the new year start..

10 jan 08
of the fab fri night.. waiting for my bestie to knock off..waited till 11 plus & dad send us to zouk.. ya i have the best dad ever.. cool yeah! but zouk was sucha dissapointment coz it was extremely packed.. so headed of to zirca..
saying no too alcohol is so hard la..



beer, long island tea & waterfall..



and yes my lemon smile..
it was a great weekend with bestie that ended at spize..

11 jan 08
finally when for my facial and there goes my few hundred bucks but that means one more item down my 2009 wish list..

then to vivo shop & st james with him..


live band till 12 plus.. took last bus home.. how budget ah.. lol..

13 jan 08

sweet pleasure.. thank you!

nitez fall as @10:40 PM

wao.. it's the ox yr once again..

alright 2009 has been peacefully more me, no fanciful stuff thou.. to begin with no bonus for this year..

surprisingly, i have got lots of goodies from sis, yi & wen..

dark choc ferrero..

bai she lian ren & pods with mars, blah blah blah..

my nail weren't in good condition cause it's too worth it to do ur nails at FEP due to the too thick layer of OPI, my nice pinkish square nails where all destroy on the second day.. & there comes the rescue of my colleague.. and my bling nails..


on the flip side..
poor sara broke the moomoo cup cover due to her clumsy-ness..


things ain't gd in the house, bro's gonna be 13 soon.. and me? i dunno, nt losing directions but just tired of things, single is gd.. dissertation ain't moving and the problem is i aln't worrying.. absurd.. so not me ya..

anw cny is coming.. spells holi holidays..

nitez fall as @11:39 AM

end of 2008..

and to sum up my 2008, it has been good i should say.. of the wonderful overseas trip with friends and family.. very fulfilling i should say.. except the end today.. bad i should say.. the "ignorance" of the bf, the "screaming " parents & the super "sarcastic" sis.. so what if you have a better package, a new home to be?

i know i'm nth but of coz i wan to achieve my goal but not HIM.. i really mean it.. i don't wanna downgraded or constantly being short changed.. i wan to be me..

i don't feel protected at all.. i feel stress about money and ur stingyness..

and i guess the end will be good..

and i will be better in time..

happy 2009 new year..

nitez fall as @11:54 PM

xmas chronicles..

overdue photo..
my fav girls.. ignore my messy hair.. lol..
all the girls..
most of the peeps..

19/12/08 thurs - madhouse gathering & mahanttan fish market.. thanks bro elf for the treat & ride back home..
22/12/08 mon - met up with b for dinner.. brought me to fairway.. & he wanted me to try "ba guan", damn itchy la.. he is damn funny cause he said last yr dec meet u.. this yr dec meet u.. next yr we also meet la.. then i replied ok.. was an interesting one.. met the biz man, they talk i hear lo..

23/12/08 tue - met up with lj.. holland-ed as usual.. laska & coffee bean.. hmm he makes me think..

24/12/08 wed - visited godpa cause he just discharged from hospital.. he's fine i guess cause still can eat the cheesecake i bought.. also got him birdnest, which i was contemplating to buy for myself as well.. as usual i hear praises from him like i never do by my own parents but of course i love my blood parents too.. i wish i can earn more to support them like i always told them..
first & foremost was a forest cranberry candle for myself..
xmas eve celebration.. had a bbq at my house with the ar woo gang..
raining heavily and we set up tentage.. how brilliant & fun..
aftermath was drinks & wii at my house..
my xmas bracelet..
25/12/08 thurs - xmas day, did my nails..
i love my squarish nails..
shopped at FEP.. then dinner with D at breko cause no smoking area, he will die he said.. then he suggested movie so off to AMK cause he was a west noob.. so east is always safer.. wanted to watch IP man but too late so ended up with twilight.. nt bad i love vampie la..

26/12/08 fri - yes, i'm working right now.. sis is coming back tonight.. & yes wishlist of 2008 cleared.. she gotta my LV palermo & wallet(which i lost mine in mos like 3 yrs ago, finally i got hold of this baby again).. anticipating..

more pix up soon for bbq.. i'm such a lucky baby cause i get many treats this year end.. loving it..

nitez fall as @2:08 PM

my little family

alright, both my sisters are official married.. So my little family is left with pa, ma & bro..
on this particular weekday afternoon while they are in town, i was called to lunch buffet..
at concorde..
my personal preference..
& this is the something i will never miss in any buffet.. someone please bring me to a dessert buffet please..
yummilicious.. esp the strawberry cherry.. am still loving it still..

nitez fall as @11:45 AM

Happening

cheerlo.. i'm nt drunk.. seriously..

anw enjoy urself at Hokkaido girl..
*above plucked from summer's blog*

nitez fall as @11:18 AM

Still enjoying my holidays

xmas mood is nearing like never before.. thanks to b.....
thanks for the treat and it's kind of amazing to finish the platter for 2.. i'm a big fat eatter.. say byebye to 2009 wish list.. lol..
and this is it..

the glass house after so long still kick ass fab.. love the live band cause somehow it gave me the feeling i had at Oosh..


the orchard road scene..

plaza sing..

outside taka..

the cute cupcakes.. and me..


i secretly felt that i was ready for this xmas.. cause i bought..
and another cute penguin one..
outside wheellock..

outside shaw..

main banner deco..

inside forum..

and i cant help to be myself..hurhur..
and then my best friend..

guess where is my voted best xmas tree?

tanglin mall.. nice blue xmas tree from recycled bottle..

and my best friend again & again..


that's about all the xmas trees in orchard.. cool yeah..

nitez fall as @9:50 AM

2009 coming soon

2009 is coming soon..

whatever on the wishlist is almost completed.. satisfied 2008..

degree - another half year, if i can finish my dissertation
driving license - no where near it, after grad ba..
increment - job change in june.. considered ba..
kate spade - hmm, i bought burberry instead cause kate spade is ex & less recognised.. lol
ipod - got it for my bday.. thanks boy..
DS Lite - got it for my bday.. thanks bro..
travel - yes i did it again.. indo, jap, thai, sha, taiwan, KL..
taiwan - over and done
palermo pm - see if sis bought it..

the more to come 2009..
my 2009 wishlist

DEGREE - a must
DRIVING LICENSE - a necessity soon.. i wanna buy carcar..
saving plan - $250/mth insur.. $600/mth study.. $300/mth hsehld.. think i need to save more and earlier instead of till 25..
increment - hopefully can get more than 3k by end 2009 if nt i hope i can convert to perm.. i kind of like the place i'm working in now..
change the tot of myself leaving this world at 30 - seems like i will live longer.. who knows..
further studies OVERSEAS - if situation allow.. masters sounds gd..
start to fly - only if possible and that pay is good..
new furniture for my room - cause not shifting my pig sty.. too messy, i wan big big cupboard..
new phone - maybe cause i quite like my current boyish k850i with gd cam..
asus laptop - till my old buddy crash.. with me since yr 2..
LV vernis - say only like KS.. obviously is waste money de..
perfume - i never bought any perfume in my entire 23yrs.. all were gifts.. eyeing sth..
buy less clothes - my bed gonna collapse cause i hang my clothes below..
facial package - i stopped like for donkey yrs due to commercialising everywhere is so damn ex la.. DIY cheaper..
spa session at turi beach - i wanna do it myself alone right after graduation
travel with friends - but dunno go which country.. korea maybe thou it's outdated already..
US or UK - by 2010.. start saving & planning
know more ppl - i'm need to be more sociable

SLIM DOWN - I'M TOO FAT!
GET MY BACKBONE ADJUSTED - VERY UNLIKELY POSSIBLE

that's about all i can think of now.. hehe..

nitez fall as @11:48 AM

holidays

school holidays is cool..

i get free time to do whatever i like.. i get to meet lots of friends.. and finally i did the blings that i bought 2985459 years ago.. lol.. but still i need to improve my skills.. and stupid me crack the casing again..


and the upcoming xmas.. i need a santa.. arghz but chances are damn slim la.. where's my pressie..

and the house has been so quiet recently.. bro went camping, er jie went pukket and da jie went europe.. i wanna go too.. soon.. who wanna go with me.. anw i was hoping that da jie can get me LV but on the other hand, it's not too gd an idea too.. otherwise i will be damn broke la.. my LV palermo or neverfull.. i'm waiting..

:P

xmas party at my hse on 24 dec.. anticipating!

nitez fall as @11:37 AM

after so long..

i'm back.. not dead..

and of the seventh..
exams over and taiwan trip came to an end..
my fav taipei 101
all the nature creatures..



da-jie's big day

& queen's

bless be..

arghz.. so many ppl getting married.. it's a merry-ing season..

nitez fall as @9:53 AM

Another week

first sian,stress.. very stress.. lots of assignment going to due within 2 week.. 2nd sian, i didn't meet up with queen & yan.. third sian, i sleep for entire 3 days of my holiday plus mc coz my head gonggong..

my er jie rom-ed..

me er jie da jie
pig2 pig 3 pig 1
we breko-ed for the first time..


vivo my most hated kim gary coz too over rated



Dome-ed

i like this..
superdogged


my weekend ended like tat..
where r my friends?
oh my god & no club as well..
bad bad bad..

nitez fall as @2:29 PM

Hei Bai Pei



nitez fall as @11:52 AM

It has been so long..

17 sept 08
Holland-ed with boon seok.. while waiting.. waiting.. familar isn't it..


26 sept 08
my first at dian xiao er


27 sept 08
F1 at 1F rooftop.. when back to my ex work place to watch F1..


the classic F1 merlion..


4 oct 08
must-try at city link..

holland-ed again at thai express..
keppel bay.. then KTV at clementi but she dun wan.. we find it too ex..

15 oct 08..
i received my parcel.. yeah from US.. i bought 2 babies, so pretty but because it's october, they ain't mine anymore..

for my twin sisters.. it sucks to have to give them away.. i want it myself.. cost me a bomb.. i hate 24 oct..

nitez fall as @2:46 PM

strange

how strange..

the prob is i dont even tear..
the prob is i'm not even sad..

how come?
no love..

hur hur

sounds ridiculous la

nitez fall as @1:15 AM

i hate you

even if i cry is because the lost of 'i used to', not u..
thinking it was a habit but i can kicked the habit..
even if i'm alone, i'm fine..
working, schooling and friends waiting..
even if i'm single, i'm good..
contemplating for quite long le like i always told my girls..

i hate liars..
don't tell me half facts..
i hate de-motivator..
don't tell me u can't find a job..
i hate the you..
don't wanna force myself to encourage you..
when i'm half hearted already..

There is no pain no hurt,
but just a burden off my shoulder..
***
with my mind still thinking bout the incident..

yes, with regards to the incident that happen a week ago..
my mind's thinking.. r u still there? did u recognise me? did u felt sorry? did u felt guilt? is it still 6105? is it still the spanish transformer unlock tone? u left an impression in my mind.. impossible i said but still i tink.. with u, i did one of the "when was the last time you did sth for the first time.. with u, i felt like a princess.. with u, the lies i took them as white lies.. with u, a hug meant the world.. with u, waiting for few hours is like split secs.. with u, i saw anxiety.. but but y r all the guys so naive thinking that i'm so dumb to believe??? but that's the past la.. moved on..
***
meet dm for a casual dinner.. i like the long time no see feeling.. cool like ever.. thanks for still being my friend..

***
i missed zouking with shan & yi.. i really long for it.. this sat?
i wish, i hope..
i wish, i might..

nitez fall as @12:59 AM

pass it on..

1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
- late for work
2. What did you do last night?
- work, study and had fish sliced soup for dinner
3. What is the most important of your life?
- my teddy bear
4. What would you rather be doing right now?
- sleep at home
5. What did you last cry over?
- thing not being up to expectation
6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
- eat
8. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
- my instinct
9. What are you worried about?
- my future
10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
- sunday

NINE HAVE YOU’S:
1. Have you ever liked someone while you had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
- yes
2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- yes
4. Have you ever been out of the country?
- yes, i wan got taiwan badly
5. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
- yes
6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
- yes
7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
- yes, for work la
8. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
- few days considered
9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
- yes enid blyton

EIGHT WHO’S:
1. Who was the last person you saw?
- my collegue
2. Who was the last person you kissed?
- kel
3. Who was the last person you texted?
- jacq, ask her bout updates for work
4. Who was the last person to call you?
- contractor
5. Who was your first crush?
- b**
6. Who is the last person who texted?
- jacq
7.Who is the last person you freaked out on?
- cockroach at visioncrest unit 01-14
8. Who did you last hug?
- my teddy bear

SEVEN WHEN’S:
1.When was your last shower?
- last night
2. When did you last see your mom?
- this morning
3. When was your last time u saw your dad?
- last night
4. When did you last dress up?
- 2 sat ago to zouk
5. When was the last time you cried?
- last week
6. When did you last go to the movies and with who?
- fri.. kel..
7. When did you last listen to music?
- now

SIX WHERE’S:
1. Where does your best friend live?
- 510 west coast
2. Where did you last go?
- singapore shopping centre to da pao lunch
3. Where did you last hang out?
- nus
4. Where do you go to school?
- nus
5. Where is your favorite place to be?
- east coast carbana
6. Where did you sleep last night?
- 345 level 5

FIVE DO’S/DOES:
1. Do you like someone right now?
- yes
2. Do they like you too?
- maybe
3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
- yes coz i was nv satisfy
4. Do you know the muffin man?
- no
5. Does the future scare you?
- yes

FOUR WHY’S:
1. Why are you best friends with your best friend?
- coz i love her
2. Why did you get a myspace?
- dunno
3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
- fortune teller
4. Why are you doing this survey?
- jiayan lo

THREE IF’S:
1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
- be a happy bean
2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
- yes, i would learn to not dwell about future so much
3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring one thing what would it be?
- my teddy bear

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
- yes. him.
2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
- maybe

ONE LAST QUESTION:
1. Are you happy with your life right now?
- could be better

Now the 5 people to do this:
-you
-you
-you
-you
-you

nitez fall as @1:09 PM

down

jeopardizing my r/s every now & then..
but he don't get it.. there is more..
he fails to understand and hear me..
i wan more.. i wan more..

nitez fall as @3:10 PM

confused!

i saw D at clementi and i'm still think about it..

crazy tot!

nitez fall as @3:10 PM

my weekend

i wish my weekend is longer..
woke up and headed to IRC at 10am.. *yawn*
project project project till 5++
meet yi at 7 instead of 3.. late late late...

then to zouk.. raining somemore..
love my bestie
fun fun fun..

but my body is aching so badly..
slept away my sun.. boring boring boring..

nitez fall as @10:25 AM

of the..

of the many man that failed me..
sorry if i ever fail you.. forgive me..

of the many promises that is broken..
dont expect me to fulfill any..

of the boring stuff..
dont expect any suprises..

nitez fall as @11:23 PM

random-ies

new mad jack at selegie..

my second time at mad jack.. the first was at jalan kayu and taste much much better.. not so packed and better service.. hmm.. i wanna try the one at six avenue..


growing fatter.. y me? my sis made me angry i dun wan attend her ROM le.. sad :(

nitez fall as @9:52 AM

looking back..

looking back..
i feel so stupid..
i laugh at myself..

HAHAHA..
but still finger cross..

nitez fall as @2:59 PM

i felt guilty..

i feel damn guilty after reading the blogs that i usually does..

material, family, love..

i thou to be kind of better off than many but i just choose not be satisfied..
friends are hard to define.. sometimes i wish that i have the courage to talk to you guys but i can't cause i am in no position.. i cant offer advice cause i dun have them.. i cant have the regular talks cause i'm not that involved.. i'm just dangling there.. i wish i knew more, i wish i was more attached.. but i wasn't..

to the fact that i become nothing.. kind of sad but i wish to catch up but running far too slow.. i thou to meet up but i cant due to work.. i thou to ton over the weekend but i was simply too tired to get off the bed.. i'm guilty cause i spend my time clubbing to attain the so-called happiness in me where i feel i'm at the top of the world.. dancing like i never dance before, drink like i was dehydrated.. the kind of after-effect that someone left me behind.. to understand what is alcohol.. the kind of hurt that can never erased and will nv be erased..

i wan to join your gathering my friend.. will you come out for a dinner if i ask you to?

hmm...

nitez fall as @3:37 PM

for the better

i'm gg to sell my lovely bbl today..
tonight 9plus.. i hope it goes thru..
taking back my $390..
bitter sweet..

coz this baby is really sweet but i need sth better..
*LOL*

nitez fall as @3:34 PM

blog-hop

free time during work = blog hop

and came across some blogs that really touched my heart..

http://caiweii.com & http://charleneyl.blogspot.com

sometimes reading them make me tear..

nitez fall as @10:20 AM

screwed up..

i have to waste 2hrs of traveling to verify my IC.. screwed up..

i miss the times that you drove to & fro NUS..

i miss the times that YOU drove me to & fro home..

i miss the times that i was driven lah..

why why like tat now??

i feel so screwed up as much as the regulations are..

i'm so wheel-bounded..

will it get better in time??

nitez fall as @10:04 AM

iPhone blogging

it' so fun to blog with iPhone! So cool. I wan iphone too.

nitez fall as @7:39 PM

UPdates

i'm so bored at work so here comes the pict..

today, things that you see that make your day at tenants house.. obtaining password with their approval.. breaking the code and tada.. you see cute stuff..


best friended 10 aug
with your best friend you do everything crazy and absurb
photo taking session at vivo
bonkerss

munched 8 aug
brownie at cartel
followed by movie mummified

Thai 1 - 3 aug
my rush rush thai trip..
i miss the omelette..
everything was cool but time not enuff.. i wanna go back again..

Oosh out at 30 jul
fav sweet peach champ
killer LIT
baileys
yupyup.. all mine.. lol.. and it happen on that day that it's the singer's last day.. sigh and he spoke to us.. kind of sad but well the voice was nt bad just that he dont really belong there.. maybe else where coz i cant imagine him sing jay's song at dempsey so outta place..

zouk out wif fav gal 19 jul


sakae terppanyaki


vivo-ed on 13 jul


And to end this post, i wished i can learn to be much more contented with life.. which i always failed to.. oh well nothing surprising.. and bless my friends around.. with much love.. hua

nitez fall as @11:15 AM

back

back..
holidays..
back to sch..

nitez fall as @11:11 AM

aww..

another 10hrs..

nitez fall as @10:24 PM

of the ipod..

i always wished for an iphone but perhaps that voice down to reality.. only an itouch, but why an i settling for an ipod instead.. enuff said..

nitez fall as @11:42 PM

happy as can be

happy as can be..

i love partying with my girls..

i love them..

i love partying..

even though i hate the burnt pocket..

drool.. rosti @ zoukie is delicious..

i'm fat.. eating supper i know..

time to lose weight.. hmm.. maybe not..

maybe tml but tml nv comes..

nitez fall as @4:14 PM

Jiayou la

i better buck up.. daddy have been nagging me to get an honours.. you tink so easy ah.. boo.. poor result = low pay.. and yes i forsee all the girl friends earning big bucks and me.. fat ugly and poor.. so ke lian la..

S-11, Vitamin M, MOOlah.. i need lots man..

still wishing like i'm 3..

please drop some cash from the sky..

pray pray..

nitez fall as @4:11 PM

If only i had a straight backbone..

If only my backbone is straight.. sian..

all my girls are SIA-ing now.. xcept me..

how demoralizing..

i cant make it.. CMI la..

fat hope.. i better be in my bed..

slp & dream..

nitez fall as @4:09 PM

my bdae

coffee club again


yes and crusted dory again.. i'm simply addicted..



at home
tiramisu

with my sisters @ senso
me@senso
my sistas

my lobster pasta
this is yummy!
tiramisu

ph.. =p

nitez fall as @11:26 AM

3 more days

3 more days to my big day..
not excited, except for the ds lite i always wanted..

nothing more.. nothing less..

*yawn*

work is boring!

nitez fall as @4:37 PM

我不满足!

我不满足!

why me..

sometimes i just felt terribly unsatisfied and i tear cause i feel the incapability of myself.. 复出得多也不会有收获.. 有时侯真的好累.. 你能了解除吗? 问题绝对不是你而是自己不懂得知足.. i wish for more and think i deserve better.. perhaps no one can give me what i wan and desire coz the love i wan no one can afford.. its beyond words where only tears and tear could only wipe them all..

why is everyone having the betterment except me and me.. i'm angry with myself..

GOD, CAN I HAVE MORE?

life is just average now.. i don't wan to remain an average jane.. perhaps i should walk out of singapore.. the push factor is never so high till recently..

SET ME FREE!


nitez fall as @11:12 AM

my first 23rd bdae treat

my first 23rd bdae treat

coffee club @ holland v with boon cause she came to my hse to pass me photo and waited for me so so long.. paiseh la..

her puri puri chicken

my crusted dory
this is really yummy better than tcc..

big big thank you to u!

nitez fall as @10:59 AM

Chjimes

he's away..

my first time in chjimes


Mountain Breeze and Martini @ Harry's



pub hop to le baroque



me & summer with beer




summer & her funny little acts nv fail to cheer me up



catch up soon sweet!

nitez fall as @10:53 AM

TGIF

TGIF!

my tenant's mat.. so cute..

@Gelare

my sweet treats..

.. came back emptyhanded.. i'm so disappointed with u..

nitez fall as @10:35 AM

婚禮進行曲

婚禮進行曲

emo-emo

nitez fall as @9:56 AM

i love my weekend!

14 June 2008 - observation tower @ meleka

our 2nd trip





19 June 2008 - shokudo






Yummilicious..
happy!

20 June 2008 - imperial

this eggy thingy was superb

candid by bro, looking fat thou

my marshmellow bro, he looks really like me! ugly

21 June 2008 - pasta cafe

my irreplaceable bestie

our ever first duo party session.. it was fab and i love her to bits.. nv so happy..

nitez fall as @12:41 PM

respect..

kudos to my man.. respect.. i was crazily crying ytd night in front of him coz i was missing someone else.. it's his bad to remind me abt him bt it's my bad to be doing that.. sorry.. it has been so long since the last time i teared.. lj maybe ur bro is right.. the world is not enough for me.. i always can't have enough.. i want the best if not i rather not.. there are so many things in my wishlist bt i'm sure i can strike them off one by one by attaining them.. ambitious it may sound but who cares..

materialistic ?? bt imagine since young, u are nt well loved and just because u are not a guy.. u try so hard to do the thing that the guys does.. u try so hard to be strong when u r breaking down inside.. u try so hard to compare with ur siblings.. roar of course the world is not enough or should say never enough.. boo.. i wan more and i deserve better.. everyone does alright..

but still bliss..
thanks!

nitez fall as @12:22 PM

happy birthday mum!

nitez fall as @10:25 AM

the appreciation of the unappreciated

i thou to be happy for the things that u hv done.. yes i wanna thank you bt somehow or rather i wasn't v please.. things could hv been better.. i like the likes nt the ones u like.. i guess no one really understands me for nw and i feel like no one really do.. hmm nt been meeting up with the girls, i'm lagging once again.. the same phenomenon is going to happen bt i'll nv let history repeat again.. help!

the strong feeling of leaving is still there.. nv left..

i really thought and believe that i desserve better.. maybe nt..

='(

nitez fall as @10:19 AM

it's all bad..

how could she make me wait for 1 freaking hour..
irresponsible.. lj if u see this pls laugh for a gd 5 mins, u know wat happen..

nitez fall as @10:08 PM

dumbfolded..

things are good but i just cant feeling emo after seeing the stuff.. it's stupid and unfair to you i know but i just can't help it.. my heart just bled.. i'm feeling sad seeing those stuff and serve me right for being so kpo.. i can't find back that feeling anymore and perhaps not even part of your memory..

serve me right for being so childish then, serve me right for being so mean but but but.. no buts now.. too tired for that, too late for that.. just emo..

but i'm still good, really still good..

nitez fall as @9:42 AM

may is beautiful

i love may 2008.. so there's a really proper post.. things are better now and i hope it's still good.. many changes bt i'm beginning to like them..

it's kind of crazy bt yes, exams ended on 7 may 08 followed by the JB trip and back to work for 2 days.. then to sis new hse for wii and majong session.. ok i confess that i'm nt a majong person, perhaps only viwawa.. then to batam for a short gateaway.. looks funny but i like the back ground..


attached.. i wan to thank you cause you finally reply my msg.. i feel so relieve now.. and i hope u find ur happiness too..

meet up with jieling, had a real good chat abt life.. i hope u find the beam of light to your future.. and also the madhouse gathering was cool.. i feel like a baby with them even i'm a grown up k.. they just wouldn't believe it..


1 more day to the last day at fullerton, 2 more days to japan trip with boon seok, 1 week to my shanghai trip and 2 weeks to my new job.. how cool can that be.. the only thing to sympathise with is the drying up bank account.. lol..

then 10 randoms things that i have done..
1) nt club for a mth.. w/o dancing my life is boring..
2) been to the pump room, thanks to sebast..
3) cut my hair more than 4 inches and it's like shoulder length now..
4) become fat again after the too many nice meals..
5) travel to 4 countries in a month.. so happening..
6) did sth brave.. shh.. it's a secret..
7) tidy my room a little.. thanks mum..
8) see my sisters get married and getting married.. so excited yet so sad.
9) shopping with best friend..
10) blog like i used to blog.. just this once..

i wish i can always be this happy.. i'll try to ask for less.. i'll try to be contented with what i have.. if only you make me so happy like this for long.. *twist*

nitez fall as @12:36 PM

piss off...

i so piss.. it's so not fair.. i'm leaving right, you know it then why push the shit to me.. super sian..

nitez fall as @5:28 PM

stone in my heart..

u kept ur promise & i kept mine..

i sincerely thank u for the wishes..

i feel much relieve now..

thanks..

maybe 10 years later..

nitez fall as @9:59 PM

sara is back.. that was yesterday..

i tender my resignation.. yeah!

yes, w/o signing the appt letter..

they ask me, why u so silly..

but i guess i have nothing to lose..

the most lose job la.. but i can't be least bothered..

& immediately tat night me & wx when to book japan trip la..

mum was still joking bout it when i say for so many times i wanna go but nv make it..

but now it's firm.. lol..

i'm such a happy girl..

plus plus.. something sweet.. lol..

long break from 11 may to 31 may.. how nice.. i m loving it..

nitez fall as @5:32 PM

NOT FUN

WORK IS NOT FUN!

STUDY IS NOT FUN!

LIFE IS NOT FUN!

WANNA DROP OUT LAH!

HAHAHAHA...

nitez fall as @1:35 PM

More than meet the eye..

More than meet the eye..

OUCH!

nitez fall as @1:37 PM

Live Life

Live Life..

so wat's after the love u can't get...

my new love from dad

and this too.. but not too much of a blessing in disguse.. haizz..

nitez fall as @9:28 PM

aiyo

wasted so much $$ on senseless stuff.
damn it..

need a part-time job i guess..
lol..

nitez fall as @9:57 AM

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